good karma

May 7, 2005
wow. I won something today that I really, seriously did NOT think I would. I mean, I've never won anything. For those of you who weren't there, I got first place in the Best Newcomer category in the Calgary Folk Festival/ Ship and Anchor Songwriting Contest today.
I have been awarded enough money to buy a new guitar (although I still hold onto the hope that my Yamaha will come back to me) and also some recording time at Sundae Sound Studios with my friends Dave Alcock and Al Irving. I can't believe it.
I got on stage and I guess I was supposed to say something and I could have told everyone how it was all lin's fault that I was even there, because she was the one that insisted I enter the contest and I had no confidence in doing so. I could have thanked all my family and friends that came out to support me or the Folk Fest or Dave Muir from the Ship, but no, I was speechless and thus I will have to save the speech for the Junos or something in the future.
I am on cloud nine.
thank you, universe.
jasmine

ode to my stolen guitar

May 3, 2005
the skeletons in my closet have all come out to play as I berate myself for "best laid plans" and accidents in yesterdays. the instant replay plays itself relentlessly this time, as I think of what I wish I had done differently...the universe was telling me to leave you at home, but I needed you near me and that was the fatal error. I want to rewind this nightmare to just a moment before I made that fatal error but all that's left is pained regret when a glance in a mirror shows me your absence. you're gone and I never knew what I had. now I'm just another casualty unable to pay the fees after just another tragedy that will keep me on my knees.
please...come back to me.