from a parking lot somewhere

I am so thankful for everything.
Everyone I love is healthy. That's a big one. I have GOT to thicken my skin significantly before someone I need leaves.
It is literally too much for me to think about.
I absolutely NEED to experience and understand everything. That's why I say dumb things so often. I don't NEED to tell the WHOLE truth ALL the time. I mean, really jas, give your head a shake. Sometimes it's just unnecessary and self-serving, really. I'm absorbing this right now and I know that my errors will only make me better. After all, at least I can recognize them. That seems difficult, even impossible for many.
I feel lucky.
jas

2006

I will be even kinder this year. I was right...the giving back of 2005 has landed me quite happy here now. Now the next phase begins, with the knowledge from the last phase firmly strapped to my back.
The sun is so warm that it is making my face dewy and my jeans luxuriously dry.
I had to get sick (on Christmas morning) because I had a bunch of stuff to get out of me and I've been too content to cry.
I feel ready today. Ready for what, I don't know. But all my incessant organizing and planning will do me no good at this point. I need to do nothing. I am just ready.
I am looking forward to walking the boys after breakfast.
Someone just broke something in the noisy kitchen. It's amazing how quiet it is now.
Hm. It gets really quiet inside after everything has been broken at least once and you've really got a handle on the fact that it can all be fixed. Or replaced.
Good. Day.
Happy New Year, everyone.
jasmine