drums!

Oh my God. Andrew Cull is a genius. He did such a nice job on the drums for my record.
For the first time, I am completely and genuinely excited about this project. Self doubt is gradually draining away and leaving me with a sense that everything is as it should be in the universe and it is all falling into place beautifully.
Sometimes it is so scary to have people believing in you. I'm afraid to let people down, I'm afraid that somehow I have been "tricking" people into thinking I have talent that maybe I don't have. I'm mostly just afraid to believe in myself, because once I'm really invested in anything, I know it will hurt if the return on the investment is something less than expected, although I'm not sure whose expectations I'm really talking about.
Anyway, the point is, screw it. Heartbreak, here I come, but I am investing myself totally into myself.
Thank god the depression is letting up.